December of 2010 when I submitted a resignation letter to the administration of MUHS. By then, I wanted to go back to the chemical industry. Yes, I did went back! I did went to Manila to start a job as a chemical engineer in a cosmetic manufacturing company. But then again, it did not do me any good. I missed home, I missed my store, I missed my friends, and most especially, I missed my students. All I wanted to do was to go home and get back to my old routine.
But I did’t get back to my old routine. Instead, I spent months giving time to myself searching for what I really want. Then my previous colleagues encouraged me to go back to MUHS. I got to think, why not? I missed the students, I missed teaching them, I missed laughing with them, I missed scolding them, and I missed fighting with them! So, I did got back!
Now that I’m here for months, it’s about time to rethink of spending another school year in this place I already considered home. But based from my experiences this current school year, I realized that I couldn’t anymore. I realized that I couldn’t stretch my patience with the kids nowadays. They are just so different from the kids I had before!
For my kids before were rowdy yet manageable,
Kids nowadays are a far cry from what I had two years ago. And as I go back to these old photos in FB, I reconsidered to look for a reason to stay. But as I face the kids in my classes, I regret to say that I really couldn’t.
Maybe because I’m getting older that’s why my patience is not that much as I had before.
Or maybe because of my boring subject that kids had already mindset-ly and honestly loathed.
Or maybe it is because of my negative attitude toward the kids that kept them from liking me.
Or maybe because I had promised not to be over-emotionally attached to my students anymore.
Can I still turn back the time when I was once called a Ma’amy, a Ma’ama, and a Ma’amsky?
Or is it about time to move forward to a higher level of group of students?
I may had never said this but I’m sure I had showed them