Prom night is for ball gowns. Prom night is for cotillion de honor. Prom night is for love songs. Prom night is a date with your first love. But prom night for me brings a sentimental longing for the past.
In times like this, I remember more of him. The night of secret glancing, the night of secret yearning, and the night of secret loving. A love forbidden, a love untimely, a love unjust…..
As I am writing this now, I couldn’t help the tears from falling. It’s still him and him alone. Him and his smile, him and his jokes, him and his nonsense!
But he’s long been gone, he’s long been lost. A lost love that I was so scared fighting for.
Exactly at this very hour under the moonlit sky, I reminisce the most precious moment of my life! Posting this at exactly 12:51 AM, here’s my prom song dedicated only to him…..
12:51
Krissy and Ericka
I’m scrolling through my cellphone for the 20th time today
I’m reading the text you sent me again
Though I memorized it anyway
It was an afternoon in December
When it reminded you of the day
When we bumped into each other
But you didn’t say hi coz I looked away
And maybe that was the biggest mistake of my life
And maybe I haven’t moved on since that night
Cause it’s 12:51 and I thought my feelings were gone
But I’m lying on my bed thinking of you again
And the moon shines so bright but I gotta dry these tears tonight
Cause you’re moving on and I’m not that strong to hold on any longer
And I saw you with her
Didn’t think you would find another
And my world just seemed to crush
Shouldn’t have thought that this would last
And maybe that was the biggest mistake of my life
And maybe I haven’t moved on since that night
Cause it’s 12:51 and I thought my feelings were gone
But I’m lying on my bed thinking of you again
And the moon shines so bright but I gotta dry these tears tonight
Cause you’re moving on and I’m not that strong to hold on any longer
As the sky outside gets brighter
And my eyes begin to tire
I’m slowly drowning
The memories of him
And I know it shouldn’t matter
As my heart begins to shatter
I’m left to wonder
Just how it should have been
12:51 and I thought my feelings were gone
But I’m lying on my bed
I’m not thinking of you again
And the moon shines so bright but I gotta dry these tears tonight
Cause you’re moving on and I’m not that strong to hold on
Cause I’ll prove you wrong that I can move on through this song
I’m so much stronger